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Everyday I walk up this hill,
just to see if I have the will,
to see your face through the glass,
Oh, I wish, I wish, you had the class,
to say to me the things I need,
you're such a slave to pride and greed,
because I know you don't want me,
but still you flirt and wink with ennui,
it's just a game you like to play,
late night calls and the drunk words you say,
if all is fair in love and war,
why do you leave me wanting more?
moonlit walks through cemeteries,
you change your mind it always varies,
please tell me what I'd have to change,
just like heaven or angels, strange,
I'd change my clothes and cut my hair,
tow the line to make you care,
'cuz I'm not like the other boys,
I think too much, make too much noise,
I'd smile if I thought I could,
you say you can't but I wish you would,
sad, sad songs and arcane obsessions,
cheap champagne and journal confessions,
Oh, finally you take the time,
to say I'm great and it's a crime,
that we could never, ever be,
because you're fake and just can't see,
and then you ask me what's wrong,
'cuz we don't talk, how its been too long,
just a sad boy who does sad things,
I say "we'll see what the season brings,"
you smile, laugh and walk away,
so I give up, come what may,
walking down the hill I hope to fall,
because you see what hurts most of all,
it kills me that you don't ask why,
I hate myself and want to die!