XXXmas

I feel like my life is completely different. My paents trust, I'm in a great relationship, work/school is going as well is it can be. Truth be told I don't know what to make of all this. For once everything is going well however I'm truthfully not as happy as I should be. I feel as though I'm wasting my youth. I know thats soo lame but it's true! When I was living in New Orleans I was on my own and it was amazing, I was always on some sort of adventure, but now I feel as though I'm over scheduled...legit. Everything I have should be making me happy but it's not, well not completely, I'm wholey and truly in love with Sam, I can't imagine living without him, and my parents trust me know and i've had this job for sooo long now. However, I can't help but think I'm missing something. I don't feel cute anymore or desireable but besides that I"m just plain BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!